My weirdest post of all

The other day on the way back home something quite strange happened to me. While I was waiting behind a red-light somewhere in Mississauga I randomly turned my head around and took a glimpse inside the car next to me. The driver was a woman in her 40s full of piercing having a cigarette with cheap clothes and in the back, buckled in child seat, was a little boy 4-5 years old looking around. At that very moment just a random thought, as weird as it sounds, came across my head that what kind of future awaits for this kid? And what if I could jump out of the car and get into theirs and yell "Go to school ! get educated ! Stay away from drugs!" would it actually affect his future a bit ? ( I know ! Weird ! ) Then I thought what would have happened if someone had done the same thing to me? Then ,  I remembered ! 

After a long time, I remembered that  actually happened to me when I was 4-5 years old. I remembered the time when I was sitting impatiently in a bank waiting for my parents to finish some banking stuff, a random guy, that I clearly remember him even now after 23 years  came to the bank with one of those famous Samsonite suitcases, wearing jeans and a white coat with sunglasses and massive beard. He looked weird enough and when he was leaving, all of a sudden he came to me and said "You are a smart kid, get educated, go to university! Leave Iran and have a successful life ! Just one thing! Stay away from Turkey" !!! Well, I did leave Iran, I did get educated, and unfortunately I forgot to stay away from Turkey and in my one and only trip there I got mugged and lost all the money I had ! 

So to make the story short, apparently, 23 years ago, I visited myself in my 40s in a bank and damn I was weird ! 

PS> OK now as a wet blanket, the whole thing can easily be justified by "Conscientiousness Algorithm" with a flavor of Sigmund Freud's theory of sub-conscience development !   

The door on the left, The door on the right

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I’m Sina … Father of a crippled child, who looks at a cold corpse of a woman who used to be her mother but now is the tomb of a naked dagger that shines from the dim light of the moon through the smokes of my cigarettes!

I’m Sina , a man on the top of the Alpes, sampling the regional soil for two years to monitor slightest variation of Sodium. Apparently it gonna affect global cool-down 15 years from now and some idiots pay me to research on that while they make your way through Tenure exam and I through avalanche!

I’m Sina, a cashier at the Timmy’s with a bullet lying somewhere in his head and a note by his side saying “I dunno where, what went wrong”!

I’m Sina, a junky with a roll of joint in his hand sitting in a vapor lounge downtown Toronto listening to the nonsenses of an 18 year old stand-up comedian who’s on the stage for the first time in his life. Although As nonsense as it may sound to you, to Sina it’s the most incredible recipes of life turning to words!

I’m Sina, in a hot summer day standing in a sanctuary holding a ring with a trembling hand and another hand holding a “you” close to him while resting his lips on "yours"!

I’m Sina , a man finding his way toward the kitchen to make Illy coffee in the memory of the old days where his father used to do it, not knowing that this is the last coffee of his life. With a hunched back that looks at the mirror with a smile that misses few teeth, thinking “How easy the life was, and how useless it turned out to be”!

I’m Sina ,a man standing in the middle of nowhere somewhere in Morocco while drops of rain soothe his hand that itches from a slap  against the face of a woman who used to be the love of his life !

Our destiny is an unwritten choice. Consciously or subconsciously picked from a normal distribution.

But my choice my friend, ... has been the scariest of all. 

Because it has been the fear itself !